Wednesday, September 26, 2012


My life’s goal has been to live a balanced life. You know what I am talking about, right? Life is a wheel and you live equally in all areas or your wheel then life is balanced. Suppose, that one person has so many areas that each piece becomes smaller and smaller, pretty soon you really don’t need to spend time balancing them all because there are so many and the wheel keeps rolling, or should I say speeding through the universe? 

Well, I suppose right now in this moment my life is balanced. Just not what I have dreamed of…
In my profession we call it compartmentalizing,” is an unconscious psychological defense mechanism used to avoid cognitive dissonance, or the mental discomfort and anxiety caused by a person's having conflicting values, cognitions, emotions, beliefs, etc. within themselves. Compartmentalization allows these conflicting ideas to co-exist by inhibiting direct or explicit acknowledgement and interaction between separate compartmentalized self states.” This is where I have been living for the past year!

So is it healthy that I know this and cannot stop or would it be better to not know?

Loves and hugs—The things that make you go hmmm.

Monday, September 17, 2012


There are times in life when you cannot take anymore. I daresay that today maybe that day.

I love a good Christian ficition novel and have lost myself in one this weekend. The scene was really sad, a mother just got beaten badly and her husband and son were murdered. One of her friends asked if she lost faith in the Lord because sometimes people turn away from Him when times are bad. She said, "I had a moment or two when I was hurting so I could hardly pray, and that is the time when the Lord Himself prays for me."

Loves and hugs-He is praying for me because I don't think I have the words.

Saturday, September 15, 2012

10 Months

My baby girl is 10 months (yesterday)!

She loves to eat!
*We still nurse for breakfast and dinner
*Still no 'sugar' unlesss it is in food

She army crawls everywhere and she is FAST. She says bye bye, mama, dada, yay. Still very social and hilarious.

Loves and hugs--Her mom is planning her birthday party. YIKES

Thursday, September 13, 2012

What to do?

I just read a friend's post about losing the baby weight. Yeah, I have a long way to go. Not only do I still have baby weight to lose I still have my infertility weight to go! My mind wants to go to the gym but my body and schedule won't allow it.

I am now one of the people that wishes away time...and I don't like it. But it is my reality. I have 14 weeks of school, 189 hours of practicum, 11 weeks of driving to Draper, 8 assignments, 2 video assignmentts, 1 test, and 1 portfolio to go! Then I am FINISHED....FINALLY!

2013 is the year of reconnection. We have started our list of all the things we haven't been able to do and I am getting reallly excited for the light at the end of my tunnel. One of the first things will be getting in shape! Then all of the things that have been pushed to the back burner will start happening.

Loves and hugs-The list is growing and I hope to be shrinking.