Wednesday, November 28, 2012

In the middle of the night...

I go blogging.

Another 3am wake-up for me...I wonder what it is like for 'normal' people who can sleep for an entire 6-8 hours on their own. I think to myself, 'self, is that really something people do, sleep an entire night without waking up? Weird!' The only time I could say this was true was when I was pregnant, goodness I could sleep 12 hours. In fact, that reminds me when CC and I carpooled that year, I would pick him up from work and fall asleep in the car then come home and go right to bed. Pregnancy was one of the most interesting experiences of my life.

Now that I have my body back (not my size, my hormones...we are officially finished with breast feeding) I have all my irregular functionalities, I.e. sleep deficiencies, zits (which is new since baby, thanks for that new awesome treat), and anxiety. My brain never stops working. Now that I am not preoccupied with producing milk all my crazy worrys are back. It doesn't help that it is finals at school and I really have no idea what to do when I am finished. Do I work in this new field, do I stay at my state job with 21 days of vacation and 16 holidays? Do I take a break and discover myself, college grad, mom, wife, employee, sister, friend, daughter or do I go and become the person I just spent the last three years creating? oh, not to I even going to graduate? Ahhhhh....

Loves and hugs-welcome to 1% of my craziness.

1 comment:

  1. Erin, I don't think you're crazy. Far from it. These thoughts I think are normal to have, and I know with you wisdom you'll figure it all out!