I survived

Finished everything on my to do list and my GPA is still intact, an A in both classes! I only have 6 credits to go, so I will be finished in December! It was a killer week and I am still recovering from it but it is over now. I am taking the entire weekend off to celebrate...but then it is back to the daily grind. Brek is starting to show interest in crawling. She grabs her toes, likes tummy time, and starting to pull her knees under her. Loves and hugs-just thought I'd let you know I'm still live. Erin

Exhaustion

I have so much to do...and all I really want is a good night's sleep. It has been 5+ months since I slept for more than three hours in one setting. I am exhausted! I wouldn't not trade Miss B for anything in the world but I need sleep!
This is what my week has looked like:
-40 hour work week
27 hours of volunteer time
-3 final papers (One is 10 pages)
-Online comments for school
-Breast feed
-Pump at 12 AM and 3AM
-Plan a retreat for the committee I am the chair of
-Training to become a Prepare and Enrich Marriage Mentor

Within each of these line items there is at least 100 tasks to do.

And...I haven't even mentioned be a wife, friend, sister, daughter, aunt...any of it!

Loves and hugs--I hope I make it through this week. I will keep you posted!
Erin

I must confess...

Hello, my name is Erin and I sleep with the same blanket every night...um...since I was 12.

It's true. (I still have the same blanket from when I was a baby (Bimby) but I retired it. It sits safe in my 'hope chest' so it doesn't get ruined.) My mom bought us (my sisters and I) new blankets when I was young and I put my 'Bimby' away and switched blankets. This blanket that I love is brown and blue with horrible little flowers. It is so worn out you can see through it. It has horrible patch jobs. It is a sad little blanket.  BUT I LOVE IT. Minus vacations, I sleep with it EVERY night. Even CC has been known to cuddle with it when he is sick. It is the source of a good night's sleep and the cure all in our house...

And....my dog, Chica and my baby, Brek have decided that this blanket (my blanket) is their property.

Ladies and Gentlemen, I do not think you understand the relationship I have with this blanket...I am up for sharing but...plain and simple--IT'S MINE!

Loves and hugs-I sound like a 2 year old.
Erin

Four Months

Brek is almost 5 months...time is flying by.

Here are her 4 month stats:
Weight: 11.10 oz
Height: 24 3/8 inches

She is a tiny little thing

Loves and hugs-I love her!
Erin

300th Post

I desperately wish for something amazing to post about but as of late all of my post stem around the most amazing gift of all, Brek. Miss B. is 4 months old, last week. I cannot believe how quickly time flies.

These are the things I know to be true of our darling girl.

She greets me EVERY morning with a smile.
We spend at least an hour feeding and cuddling.
When I get home at night she always smiles.
Her bond with her daddy is like nothing I have ever experienced.
She sleeps through the night.
She is one of the happiest babies I have ever met.
She entertains company.
She is in love with her toys.
She is extremely independent.
She is obsessed with Chica even though Chica doesn't know what to think of her.

I have changed too...
I am much calmer.
I do not like working extra hours, I want to be home ASAP.
I want to lose weight but breast feeding is my number one priority.
I love my husband in a new way.
I take a picture of her every day and get upset if we miss a day (we have only missed two days)
My house has toys everywhere, even in our bed.
I am that mom that talks about her baby all of the time.
I like it when people ask me for crunchy tips.
Vinegar is my new bleach, we clean everything with it.

Loves and hugs--I guess my 300th post wasn't so bad.
Erin

Prioritizing

Guilt.

I feel guilty most of the time. It is an ugly beast that has followed me all my life. Right now the guilt stems from being ok. An ok mom, ok at work, ok at school, an ok wife, an ok friend, and ok at practicum.

So to make me feel better, I am taking the morning off from all my commitments and spending the morning with Brek. This means no church, no volunteering, no shopping, no phone calls, no emails, nothing. Just the two of us.

CC is on his own...he can go rock climbing, church, shopping, to his shop. Just so it is just me and my girl, just for a while.

Loves and hugs-I hope ok is enough because it's all I've got.
Erin

This Year's Theme

At the end of last year we had two major life changing events, three if you count me adding 10-15 hours a week to finish school. I posted a blog titled, the places you will go.

With all the changes and stress we have been through...I want to start living that theme OUT LOUD!

Loves and hugs-so many new places to go.
Erin